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Friday, July 03, 2009
Bald Is Sexy        
 Sunday, June 21, 2009
Pre-Exam Jitters  I've been studying for nearly four months for an exam that I'm taking on Tuesday evening. As much studying as I've done, I know that I should have done more...yikes. I need good vibes!!!Labels: exams, freaking out Sunday, May 31, 2009
Ideas  I have to face the fact that I just hate working for other people. Ever since I can remember, I've wanted to start my own business. So many ideas have crossed my mind over the years. And now, I think I may have a great one. Must find the courage and the strength to make it happen. Creating something of my own is the only way to be truly independent... Labels: Ideas Monday, May 25, 2009
Opportunity For Improvement  At 36 years old, I still want to blame my parents for everything wrong with me. And my inability to manage money I want to blame it on the fact that when I was very young, my father would immediately confiscate all gift money that I received in order to stow it away in the credit union. He thought it was teaching me how to be responsible with money. I might have been better off if he had taught me the value of saving a portion of all money received. Given me a dollar for every 5 received or something. I want to blame it on the fact that I never received an allowance as a child. If I wanted or needed money for something I had to ask for it and was either indulged or refused. I might have been better off had they given me a weekly stipend that I had to learn to budget. I want to blame it on the fact that my mother is a schizophrenic. Once I got a job in high school, I saved a good deal of it for college. I was being responsible. Everytime my mother caught me reviewing my bank statement, she would call me a cheap pennypincher and accuse me of ironing my money. However, when she found out that I had $8K in credit card debt after college she didn't speak to me for 2 weeks for being so irresponsible. You just can't win with that woman. I'm not sure where I went wrong. Up until my Sophomore year in college, I was very responsible with my money. However somewhere between that and my Junior year, things got out of control. All of my bad money habits just snowballed. Since then it's been pretty much a roller coaster of getting into debt, getting out, getting in, getting out, getting in. I've entered into a downward spiral again recently. It's something I need to try to resolve once and for all--I know. It's interesting...there are consistently two main problems that I have in life (money management is one), and I've been on a roller coaster with both of them nearly my entire life. No matter what happens, they always seem to eventually show their ugly faces... ...I know, whining about it isn't going to do anything. I need to take action. Like buying a lottery ticket. Labels: moaning, Money Mismanagement, My Mother Thursday, April 30, 2009
Habit Is A Great Deadener  Actually, it's more like the 12 year itch. I love New York, but lately I feel as if our relationship has lost its spark. And I'm not sure how to get it back...nor if I want to get it back.Interestingly enough, at the same time I've been having the traitorous thoughts of moving to...California (most likely San Fran...less likely but still possibly LA), both of my best friends here in NYC just mentioned that they might want to move to LA. Coincidence???????? Labels: Boredom, California, Seven year itch, Stale Relationships Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Holy Sh*t  Sometimes life just seems so hard! It's been kind of crazy for a while. You know things are getting desperate when organs in your body try to claw their way out. I had an emergency appendectomy on March 7th. The appendicitis was most certainly brought on by the massive hangover the day before. That, or a certain member of Duran Duran who I met a couple of days before. (God he was SUCH a wanker. Disappointing, really. Thankfully, it wasn't Simon.) Not sure if I'm just getting old and tired, but I used to feel as if entering into a serious relationship with a man, or getting married was cheating-denoted a weakness-and decreased the validity of any accomplishments. Over the last year, I've found that my attitude has changed, and I feel as if I'd like to be in a relationship. Even more shamefully, I find that I wish I didn't have to face everything alone. What was once a badge of honor is now just wearisome. HA! I've turned into my worst nightmare. Must sign off now and have a good chuckle at my own expense. Labels: appendicitis, Duran Duran, old and tired, shame Sunday, April 05, 2009
NYM Goes West  I'm on vacation this week visiting my sister in LA. It's making me think. Nothing new...I've been having these thoughts for a while. Maybe I need a change of scenery. California???? Scandalous. Labels: change of scenery, LA, vacation |
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